Monday, December 17, 2007

Dulcinea

I have this vision of myself as a person who writes a lot, or at least semi-regularly, but I'm starting to realize that my carefully constructed self-image is more fiction than I'm comfortable with. So: an attempt to remedy this.
I put together a turntable and amp in my room the other night. Fueled by a strange, driving compulsion, at about 2 in the morning I disentangled the forest of cables around my parent's Sony phonograph, older than I am by several years, and lugged the thing down into my room. It's surprisingly difficult to silently carry archaically heavy equipment down a flight of stairs, and I probably woke everyone up in the process. I love th
e weight of dated electronic equipment though; something in the gravity of it makes me feel like it has more substance, originating from a simpler, more well built time, when things were actually constructed with the intention of repair, and a long lifespan, not just replacement in 2-3 years. Really though, whether my curmudgeon-ly ideals have any grounding in truth I don't know.
It's interesting how much more depth vinyl gives an album. It's difficult to really explain, because it's kindof an obtuse, audiophile/nerd/dork concept, but it gives the music this profoundly deepened impact. Vinyl has a smaller total range of sound than CDs or other digital media, but the way that it operates, as a steady str
eam of sound, rather than binary snapshots, makes the music more real in a lot of ways. It's almost as if, relative to a CD, the sound is squished, but instead of just becoming smaller, the excess shoots fathoms downwards, becoming a tangible sound-thing that you can almost sink your hand into.
I dunno, I find myself drawn to older things lately. Not ideas necessarily, but materials, aesthetics, substance. Simple guitars, natural finishes, raw woods.


Sunday, September 30, 2007

Fuck this.

Seriously, fuck it.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

W. E. W.

Oh sing with me a hymn,
for the light that has dimmed,
For the heart that no longer beats.
Even until death,
When nothin' else is left,
And the pain has finally ceased.
Oh and the sun will never shine,
On this cold dead heart of mine.

Sing with me a hymn,
For the body that's grown weary,
For the voice that's forever stilled.
My lips will utter praise,
Until the end of days,
For the space that cannot be filled.
And the sun will never shine,
On this cold dead heart of mine.

Oh I will be your roof,
Your shelter from the storm,
Your footing against the wind.
I'll mend for your my dear,
Them hopes that have been torn,
And I hope our paths will cross again...





Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Thursday, June 07, 2007

When Push Comes to Love


Go, go where you may,
and do, do what you will.
I'll see you again on a sunnier day and
I know I'll love you still.
I can't seem to understand,
but you've got my heart in your hands.

The dawn's early light
has now faded to grey.
The ashes from the fire we had last night
have all blown away.
And I can't seem to understand,
but you've got my heart in your hands.

You're a rainstorm, a fire and a trainwreck,
all wrapped up in ribbons and lace.
You're a fistful of roadside flowers,
arranged just so in a dimestore vase.
And I can't seem to understand,
but you've got my heart in your hands,
Well you've got my heart in your hands.

-William Elliott Whitmore

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Tarantula Hawk

I am putting off writing nine pages about hunter-gatherers.




Saturday, April 28, 2007

LISTENING TO: 明星-神様の舌打ち。

It's hot outside. I need to mow the lawn. I've mowed it twice already with the push-mower that I borrowed from our nextdoor neighbor (a nice, aging hippie named flip, whose lawn is pristinely manicured), but it hasn't really been able to penetrate the seven inch grass shield that formed during our (my) inattention to the lawn during fall and winter. The backyard isn't so bad, but I'm actually worried about cutting away the front lawn and finding the remnants of a tiny insect civilization. Bodies, rent in half by the rusty, unflinching blades. Weeping beetle children. A partially demolished 1/200 scale high-rise.

I haven't taken any good pictures in a while. There are a couple of places in Bellingham that I think would be pretty cool, but I hesitate to go tromping around the semi-industrial neighborhood in the middle of the night with a camera and a five foot tripod. Bellingham seems like somewhere where people would call the police if they saw that. Or I'll just get mugged. I dunno. I need a burly(er) friend to go take pictures with.

NOW LISTENING TO: Naglfar - Into the Cold Voids of Eternity.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Virginia

Man, what the hell?

Goddamn.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Rusty pickups are my muse.

I meant to post these two weeks ago, but was stricken by a strange inner-ear infection that has yet to fully recede, so I didn't.

I went to visit family in Hoquiam (google!), which in addition to being a fairly nice drive (past Oympia, anyway) resulted in some pictures around my Grandpa's house:





It was weird to be driving around in my mom's (relatively) new car. I felt like I should have been in some primeval Dodge, with moss growing up the running boards and a huge diesel spewing particulates and black smoke from the decaying exhaust.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

goddamn residual issues.

CLEARLY, I MUST LEARN TO APPRECIATE WHERE I AM, WHEREVER IT MAY BE.



Thursday, March 08, 2007